Black V.S Dark

Tonight, i am not trying to pretend i am ok.
I'm not ok.
I'm somehow panic and nervous.
I felt why i have to work so hard for that.. i could have different ways.
I also manja manja.. i dont want to explain why.
just be with me..
i just need a shoulder to cry on.
But, you're so far away.
But, you all are so far away.

Well, it's time for bed.
Tomorrow, i will be celine chang.

Smile smile.

International Friendship

Another wonderful moments.

Gonna come back one day to visit my buddies.

Thanks.

Moving is not fun at all.

Moving to a new place always brought back lots of good memories.

And a lots of work too.

But, i felt really lucky because mom was around to help me out.

Love her forever.

Journey

It's better to be prepared for an opportunity and not have one

than

to have an opportunity and not be prepared.

New New New New New New

Hmm.. finally i left pocatello, idaho.
I am in Virginia right now.
The feeling being away from my second home is kind of weird.
But, i know it's another destiny for me.
May 28th, 2007, is a day to be rememebered.

Dedication of Merit

May every living being,
Our minds as one and radiant with light,
Share the fruits o peace,
With hearts of goodness, luminous and bright.
If people hear and see,
How hands and hearts can find in giving, unity,
May their minds awake,
To Great Compassion, wisdom and to joy.
May kindness find reward,
May all who sorrow leave thier grief and pain;
May this boundless light.
Break the darkness of their endless night.
Because our hearts are one.
This world of pain turns into Paradise.
May all become compassionate and wise,
May all become compassionate and wise.

Sweet dream.. :O)

Sleep tight, and chase away the monster.
i really like this picture.
.....

仇人 vs 恩人

遇到曾經愛過的人

記得微笑向他感激

因為他是讓你更懂愛的人

遇到曾經恨過的人時

要微笑向他打招呼

因為他讓你更加堅強

遇到曾經背叛你的人時

你應該心存感激

因為若不是他

今天你不會懂這世界

遇到曾經偷偷喜歡的人時

要祝他幸福唷

因為你喜歡他時

不是希望他幸福快樂嗎"

The meaning of my name.

It's interesting.

"U Turn" Mystery

It was a fun and memorable road trip.

:O)

C.E.L.I.N.E

思念很久之前给我的...

很喜欢...

Hang out with old buddies..

Happy moments are always short, but there are memorable.

Miss sor po.. :O)

Hmm...
Finally, i graduated from Idaho State University.
2003 , i gave up everything just to come to USA for a new start.
I gave up opportunity to be around with my families, my friends, my love, and my career.
finally, i am done.
i fullfilled my dream and graduated from a university from usa.
That's one of my dream.
i had a wonderful simple celebration.
Lots of friends came back to town for graduation and the simple gathering.
we had lots of catch up. lots of stories to tell each other.

Yes, in two weeks, i am going to leave this place.
leave pocatello where i had been staying for 3 years.
i am going to virginia, herndon.
It's a big cities, fast-paced, sunny state. it is totally different from pocatello.
i have to challenge myself for a new envinronment, new life, new friends, new career.
sor po.. i will bring you gals around with me
and fight the wars with you all.

these days, mummy is around. she cooked bf, lunch, and dinner.
first, it's kind of uncomfortable because it has been long time nobody around to control and nag at me.
but, i know mummy love me so much.

she is so happy with my new job.
somehow, i felt i am kind of lucky.. because for international students it is hard to get a job over here.

pls pray for me..
miss you gals.

Hearty from home.. :O)

As usual,

very special and very meaningful..

Simple comparison..

I liked this simple comparison.

No Harm,

No hard feeling.

No Competition.

Nothing..

hehe..

Wonderful..

Mummy is here.
She arrived safely.
and i am so happy to see her.
home sweet home...
:O)

哭得越大声, 就是赢家..!!

hai...
原来,坦白从宽是错误的开始..
外面的世界,
我选择了, 保护自我的形式.
原来,我的内心世界也应该是一样的.
我猜错了呀!!.. 笨celine.. 嘻嘻!!

我也会踏踏实实地保护我自己.

Dreams

hmm...
I watched an excellent movie today
it's so real and it's really describe my real feeling.
Will i be the same?
haha...
:O)

Man, i cant wait for the best moments in my life..
Hoorayyyyyyyyy...

失礼了。。

这次我真的有点气
虽然你是我的朋友
但是，我真的有点失望
认识那么多年了
我也知道这是你的性格和作风
可能是我小气了
还是我厌倦了那种方式
我还是不明白
为何你总是那么的虚假，
爱showing off
说反话
有时候，我在想
你是不是想要证明些什么东西
如果是那样的话，我认为你赢了全世界
我还以为我们是朋友，我们之间是坦诚相对的
没有竞争，没有谎言
只有真心话。。

我看我错了。。。
我觉得我可能误会了，但是那确是我的第一个想法。。
我会好好的调整我的态度。。
失礼了。。

$20 of honesty

Hmm.. today i was wondering.
How much does honesty cost?
If i have $20 right now, how much honesty can i get?
haha...
i think i am going insane..

Let me earn my 1st million first...
hahahahahahaha......
silly me..

每个人都一样..

Why.........
Why.........
人就是那么虚假..
永远不会说真话..
Everybody is...
Seeking for someone who is not like that..
:O)

亲爱的, 我会好好过

你的爱很像泡沫
太轻或太重
都不在手中
我的爱就像天空
太放或太收
你都只是风
你来过却爱上自由
你出走我不问理由
我会好好过
等你再爱我
总有个角落
会让你想起我
我会好好过
等你再爱我
向右或向左
都有我站在这里守候

你留下很多
够我面对寂寞
寂寞不重
重是爱太多
我会好好过
当你回头
看到的一定是我


p/s: 可能, 这就是缘分吧!!. 我想你..
第一次, 听的感觉很无奈.. 心有点痛
歌曲：我会好好过

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Although is only consolation prize, rm100,
but this is our frenship pleasure moment...
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I need a break.

Suddenly,
I felt tired of loving people around me.
I felt tired of caring people around me.
I felt like my loves and cares are not appreciated.
I felt tired maintaining lots of promises and faith.
I felt like i am just giving.
I felt like i didnt receive any.

Maybe i am disappointed.
Maybe i am wrong.

No matter what,
I need a break.

Remembering the Victims

God bless victims from Virginia Tech.
It's a shocking news for everyone.

These few days, i received lots of phonecall, email from my friends and asking how am i?
Am i affected by this incident?
I felt so warm and touched eventhough i am so far away from them.
Last night, before i went to bed i received a sms from my thiam thiam.
He is the first one who send me sms.
He asked me to take care and be safe.
Eventhough, it is just a short sms from him and others.
It makes me happy because i know my friends care about me
eventhough i am not around them all the times.

And, My dear John, thanks for calling me in the middle of the night to check on me.
Thanks.And, i know you dont have to do that.
But, i really appreciated that.
It's a suprise.

Thanks guys for the loves and cares.
I really appreciated that.

God Bless Virginia Tech!!!!!

歌曲：再见

歌手：李玖哲
电话还在响我有些心慌
熟悉的号码在挣扎
故作的坚强虚伪的力量
撑过这一刻更悲伤
没接的电话是一种惩罚
不该想却割舍不下
如果再见我你能说什么
说爱我或只是寂寞
原谅我冷漠选择不联络
因为我担心你会听见我
还那么难过
短讯声在响凌晨两点半
惊醒的房里更孤单
一句睡了吗像你的习惯
这夜晚为你而混乱
因为对你我连再见都
说不出口
我想你能懂爱还在心中


p/s: i feel it... i really do.. it's so true..

Hi Hi..

Hmm.. Hi Hi.. :o)
At my workplace, everyone know that whenever i appeared..
i always said " Hi Hi"
...

Bad dreams ...

I was choking in my sleep last night.
Suddenly, i felt that i couldnt breath.
I was scared.. and i woke up immediately and went to the restroom.
It was scary, i thought i am going to die or something.
I think i am understress.
I am suffered from fatigue and emotional tension.
I slept the whole day during weekends.
Gosh..
Please... I want to be free..

My favourite song - KISS, Because i am a girl.

珍惜友情...

Hilda是我的救命恩人.
She save me from an accident from a drunk driver.
我们虽然年龄相差四年,
但是,认识她的日子里,
她给了我很多的无形帮助.
看见妳那么地辛苦,
我真的有点心痛.
我真的希望我可以easy妳的痛,
看见妳哭,
看见妳彷徨,
看见你失望,
看见你和我一样的度过重重的难关
希望时间可以冲淡一却.
我们一起努力吧!!!

我很幸运因为我还有我的傻婆和傻佬们,
有你们的爱,
我会更坚强..
好久没和你们聊天了!!
想你们..
想你们的拥抱..

I am protected by God..

Y'day as usual a group of friend went to downtown for my friend birthday.
It's sarah birthday.
I almost got hit by this drunk driver, because he/she was backing up very fast and didnt see me i was standing right behind him.
Luckly, Hilda was screaming and try to put me back...

i felt bleessed, because if she didnt pull me back, i know i will be knock down underneath the car.
i think i just got my life back.
thanks, baby..
i really appreciated for saving my life.

i really care..

Today, i saw a simple couple hanging out at the SUB.

I saw a guy lying on a gal's lap.

He was taking a nap peacefully.

He looks so comfy.

Suddenly, i told myself..

Where is my Mr Right?

(somehow, i know you're my Mr Right, but, i can't tell you)

I am not..

Hmm.. i am being very lazy these few days.
I dont know why..
I just being very very lazy and i really hate that.
Anyway, these days, i have sleepless night again.

Counting my sheep every night..
It's close to summer time..
Am i ready for summer?
I doubt that..

Wonderful Moments

I am glad that everything went so smooth and well.
i am happy for that.
Just need to relax and release my stress..

I am blessed.

Eventhough, i had a crappy day y'day.
But, today, i met some friend..
they know that i am stressed because of the big events things going on.
My boss, my supervisor, my friends, my silly friends came to talk to me
because they know i shouldnt be treated like that.

I know there are still somebody who cares about me.
Eventhough, i am not american.:O)
I am proud to be chinese who live at a foreign country because i did it.

I am not dumb... :O)

Today, i met some people acted with a shallow mind.
They thought they are better than anyone because they are american.
They thought everyone except american is dumb.

Sometime, I wonder why I am so far away from home.
And trying to blend in to the culture and custom for a better life.
I WONDER why I am so far away from mom, dad, and families.
I wonder why I am so far away from sor po and sor lou.
And I have to be alone so far away.
Today, i felt so lonely.

I know I always like to challenge myself.
I know I can do it.
I always stand back up whenever i fell.
But, I really hate someone discriminate me because of my skin color.
I am not stupid.

你知道吗?

虽然, 我们的距离很远.
但是, 我们的心是很近的.
那就是我喜欢的感觉...
我喜欢, 因为是没有压力的..
我喜欢,因为是很真的..
我只是简单地喜欢..

My favourite cartoon...

" It's where he got famous"

" Uncle remus..... hehe"

Sweet Memories... :O)

Hmm..
last night i had a wonderful conversation with jeannie and sinian.....
;O)
Very simple...
Just a simple chat.. sharing song..
sharing thought..

hmm.. and we all make a deal.
we said when we get old,
we will go to supermarket to kai kai..
Just all the old ladies and old man..
helping each other to get toilet rolls,
compare where to get the cheapest veggie,
pushing the shopping cart,
buying tau fu and cook a delicious meal onces a while.
jumping up to get the can foods at top shelf,
making loud of noise around ,
helping each others to get grocery.
people will stare at us," what are those popo and gong gong doing here'
hahaha...

i told jeannie, i miss those old days we always go to mid-valley, one-utama kai kai ya.
miss you all..

:o)

STRESS.. 压力 ..

yesterday, it was the most scary night ever.
it was my first time, i had struggled through my sleep.
Having my laptop besides me doesnt really help me this time.
I always thought that i could handle my stress from work, study, and personal life.
I am good at handling my own stress.
unfortunately, not this time.
But, last night, i totally felt that i couldnt breath,
i couldnt focus at all.
i am stress and i am not happy.
i am worried because i am scared it will become of of the mentally disorder.
these days, i dont want to talk to people.
not even, my sor po, sor lou and my families.
i just want to be alone.
and dont want to see anyone..
joke with anyone.
hang out with anyone.
Somehow, i felt more comfortable when i am alone.
Maybe i am sick of faking myself in front of others.

CELINE CHANG...
HANG IN THERE..pls..
hang in there... pls

STRESSFUL DAY..

i am feeling depressed and stress
i have so many things to do.
i am stress
i need a way to relax..

你的。。

你真的曾经来过我的世界吗？
如果有，
我为什么会让你离开我身边。
如果没有，
为什么我的心会这么痛。
你走了以后，
你的味道会慢慢散去，
你的样子会慢慢模糊。
我只希望，
你能留下一个东西，
让我证明你有来过我的世界。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我有你的回忆。。
还有那模糊的味道。。
让我想起我曾经幸福过。。
谢谢！！
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

怪怪的感觉。。

有点奇怪。。。
有点怪。。。

可能是我敏感了。。

但是，这次我很乖。。
没有坏坏噢！！！

星期四

昨晚, 发了一个梦..
很奇怪的梦.
但是很模糊,不记得了..
嘻嘻!!
我要拼命了..

I can do it..

今天,我许了一个愿望...
一个我从小到大都很渴望的愿望..
老天爷..
祝福我!!
我会努力的...

Please Do it.. :O)

Spread the love around by helping others
Please Join.. and it doesnt hurt you at all.

Sweet Sweet.. :O)

Hmm.. i really like this statement

" 告白没有最佳的时机，只有最佳的那个人“

。。。。。。。

真得不应该听歌哦！！！

一首首的歌和
我的感觉和记忆是一体的。。

想起了。。 不该想起的回忆。。

[我要偷懒一下了。。]
[静静的]

Peace in Heaven, Kiu Po

Early this morning, i had a dream about someone passed away.
And, suddenly my alarm clock rang , and my dream was gone.
I am half sleep on my bed. Finally, struggled for 1 hour,
Finally, i need to wake up and refresh myself to class.
The first thing i did was went online and see who is online at that moment.
I saw my sister caption stated" Your smile is always with us, we are regret we didnt see you, [Peace in Heaven]"..
I have that gut feeling something is wrong somewhere.
She told me our loved " Kio Po" has passed away .
She is one of the nicest old po po who always love us so much.
She is my far relative in our life. She took care of us when we were youn
Whenever i met her,
she always said
"Wei Wei, Sit Bao Mao?"
"Wei Wei, Hai Hao Mao?"
"Wei Wei, Sit Ha Beng?"
"Wei Wei, Oau Ho Lan Shui Mao?"
....
And, her warmest smile..
I was shocked.
Because i was just thinking about my grandma who has been really sick these days.
My sister and i were trying not to think about our grandma situation.
Somehow, i felt so empty because i really want to go home and give my grandma a hug.
Or just to be with her...
Grandma, Please get well soon.
We love you so much.

I went to the bathroom.
I cried while having my shower. I remembered baby said she likes rainy day because nobody knows she is crying.
I totally understand that.

Life is full with love.
Life is unpredictable.
So, please share our love to someone who we think is important to us.
And, never regret to show your love to someone special.

Rest In Heaven, Peace in Heaven, Qiu Po..
My prayers and thoughts are always with you... :O)

My wishes.. :O)

Mom is going to have a interview with the US embassy this monday.
I am so excited because i really want mom to get the tourist visa.
Well, i guess it wont be a big problem because she had usa visa before when we came to usa in 1994.
And, i asked my university to send her an invitation letter as well.
I know she can get it..

I really want my mom to come over to meet my friends, meet my american friends, meet my host parents. meet my co-workers, stay at my apartment, go to wal-mart with me, show her the usa university and others.
I just have so much to share and show it to her.
I know she will loves it because she always loves usa system.

I wish my sor po and sor lou could come to my graduation as well.
I want them to share my happiness.
But, somehow, it's not that easy.
Well.. It's ok... because i know if they were here.. i know they will bring me flowers and stand in the line.. waiting for me.
Hahaha..

My brotherhood with Alpha Kappa Psi

It was my third year being a Alpha Kapp Psi member.
Alpha Kapp Psi is a business fratenity recognized nationwide in USA.
And, i would say this year was the most memorable year being a brother of AKPs.
I learned lots from all my brothers.
Without them, i wont know how the american culture and system works.
On March 29, We are having our annually 2007 Idaho Business Leader of the year at PAC.
This time, i am in charge of the banquet that night.
I have been planning this banquet from last year. It take lots of effort and time of mine.
Sending out invitation,designing invitation, giving out reward, and working with all my brothers.
Teamworks tell us eventhough we are still a student at ISU.
We can make it. we can be as professional as the adult in the real business world.
My budget is 8000USD for the whole banquet.
I am expecting 250 ppl at the PAC that night.
People been asking.. can she do that?
I know i can.. because i know i can..

I am kind of nervous with the whole banquet because i want it to be perfect.
I want people to remember that Celine Chang did a wonderful job for IBOY.
hahaha..
I can do it.,

她要结婚了。。。

Dec 9, 2007
二零零七,十二月九日.
是我们的宝贝傻婆的大日子...
她要结婚了...
我们都很感动噢!!
我感动地哭了..
因为是快乐和幸福的..
很期待我们的大日子...
又是另一个快乐时光..

但是，我还不清楚我能够回家吗？
昨晚，她很高兴地告诉我们那个好消息。
我们，三个都得意忘形讨论我们该做些什么。。。
好像我们自己的婚礼一样。。

但是，我一点伤感。。
好像快失去她一样。。
我真的很希望我可以回家。。
做婚礼的Super VIP..
嘻嘻！！！！
另一方面，我总是开不出口告诉傻婆们，
“我可能只是可以远远地和她们一起庆祝”。。
Let's Pray..

恭喜噢！！！
Love you forever..
Our sor po.. friendship..
Put a smile in your face..
ok..

Little Star

There are few sleepless night.
I just turn on my laptop...
Let the movie kept on playing until i felt asleep.
Hmm..
somehow, i dont even know when did i fell asleep.
I just dont feel safe and comfortable for my sleep these days.
No matter how much i sleep,
I felt tired as well.
.....
I recall the moment we went to the top of the hill,
we sat on the ground,
we lied on each other lap,
we counted the sparkling star,
we drunk wine
we shared each other secret
we enjoyed the night.

I miss you all... :O)

A note from friend.

Someone told me :::::::::

好姐妹,
不一定要不断的刻意的保持联络
但是最重要的是,
你心里面,
有没有有给对方一个全然的祝福.

I totally agreed..
:O)

Nothing to do...

This two day.
i am been so so so free.
No exam. no work.. nothing..
no text message, no email...
And all my sor po, sou lou, even sinian are very busy these days.
So, i am just all by myself.
Didnt really talk to them these days..

So, i am just alone.
Listening to music..
Watching movie..
Cooking my own dinner..

It's just very quiet and simple.
The moment with myself.

默哀一分钟。。

今天，Baby的婆婆过世了。
对不起，有时候看见她真的好幸苦
因为认识她那么久了
她的事情是一波未平，一波又起
但是，她坚强了很多.
My prayers and thoughts are always with you.
Hang in there.

我们一起去吧!!!

我想去听听海浪声..
我想在黑夜里, 数着数不清的星星..
我想再一次看见流星..
我想念坐在草地的味道..
我想念远远地看着太阳..
我想回到那三个星期去..
我想做的更好一点....

Thanks for your support and love.. :O)

Hmm..
all my sor po.. thiam thiam, wc, ricky, bibu, vincent, liching, and... our new member zhi ming..
just my sinian is not there... maybe he is busy ya..
hehe.. congratulations on zhi ming..
finally he passed the exam.. because he finally has the chance to come to my house before meeting me..
hehe..
My mom sound so happy because she said all my 10 friends is here.
thanks gals and guys..
i really appreciate you gals go to visit my families..
i love you all.
thanks for seeing my mama and papa..
hehe... seeing my small bibu, it make me felt like an old lady..
hehe.. because bibu ask where is my small lin lin..
hehe..
soon.. well, i hope...
anyway, finally all of you have the chance to see video i created long time ago.
i am so glad.. it was a long time ago...
finally almost one month later.. everyone can see my thought and love..
hehe.. but, somehow, i felt shy shy.
shy because i felt so sor..
hehe
ok..
love u all so much .. so much..
because you are all i have and my families.

:O)

为什么!!!

我快撑不下去了....
好难过...

一言难尽

我只想说：“很痛“。。。
我想要释放。
i need guide...

The Selfish me.

Last night, it was the most scariest night in my life.
And, i never been so unsafe before.
I was shocked.
I was panic.
I was scared.
I was disappointed.

Life is just full with new surprises and challenges
In my life, i couldnt live without my families and friend love.
Families are the most important elements in my life.
Today, i forced my sister to give up her love.
Because that man is dangerous and can lost his mind and temper easily.
As a sister, i was scared because i know it will happen to my own sister in the future.
As a sister, i saw how he lost his temper and hurt his own friend physically.
I believe, it will happen to my own sister too.
with a big sharp knife at front of her face
I dare not tell my parents because i know how sad they will be.
So, i take up the role of my family.
i gave her pressure.

I am such a bad sister for her.
Maybe others people could do a better job.
I know she will hates me forever in her life.
Somehow, i am hopeless.
i dont know what to do.

Some thought

Suddenly, i felt...

不要为了不重要的东西而失去重要的东西
怕羞也好, 所谓的自尊心也好
为了这些而失去重要的东西
因为你会后悔的.

Celine的年初一

来美国都有一段时间了,

印象中, 过新年的感觉,

我有一点陌生了.

好久没有和家人和马来西亚朋友渡过了.

今年的初一, 过得特别的不同.因为是第一年,

我有不同的经验.

我有一位美国的朋友, 他是James Rich

他特地上网去查看华人新年的历史和风俗.

我邀请他来和我们一起在bar里渡过除夕.

年初一, 他邀请我, 我妹, 小鸡, 和gary去他家里去..

今天,早上,James给我来电话, 他确定我们会不会过去他家里.

我心想, 为什么他那么焦急.. 还埋怨他把我吵醒了.
和思念聊了一会儿, 我也紧急地准备了
因为我睡不醒呀!..昨晚,玩得太疯狂了..
好想懒床噢!!但是,不能.. 因为约了James.

十点中, 我们来到他家里,

James身穿红色.. 我有点惊讶了..

我们一踏入他家大门,

我是第一个看见他门上,

挂着一块红布, 自己亲手,手工做的"福"字,

还是倒立的"福"字.

我们四个小孩都很惊讶.
为什么他会知道呢!!!

James说:"after i came back from bar last time, i went online to search about chinese new year" James说:"i search chinese new year at wikepedia"

James说:"i know you will like it"

我呆了一下... 静静地..

然后,我们去到他的厨房, James给每人派了一块红布,

里面好像有东西,但是我没有去理会.

James说:"i know i am not married, but i wabt to give it to you"

James说:"i know you guys give out red packet during chinese new year"

.... 我静静地......

过了几秒, 妹妹拍了我肩膀说

James给的红布里, 有着两块美金,James给的祝福

我心里,很感动,

那笨笨和可爱的傻瓜..

我们当然给回他的美金..

我心里只是收下他的心意和祝福

给了他一个拥抱..

James又说:"I know you guys suppose to have a reunion dinner"

James又说:"But, i dont know how to cook a good chinese meal"

James又说:"I have scramble eggs, waffer and orange juice"

我又静静地,享受James的爱心早餐.

心里有说不清楚的感觉..

James说:"i want you to be happy, celine"

James说:"i want you to feel like home because i know you miss home"

James还准备了firecrackers, red chocolate, 两张白纸上写着"春节"和"除夕".

James说:"we should fire up the firecrackers and scared away the beast"

我忍不住了.. 我问James:"James, how did you know all this?"
我又问James:"James, how did you know how to write chinese characters?"

James说:"i wont tell you"

临走前,我都很感动,很感激.
感激james让我感受到他的爱...
让我发现快乐是在身边的.
让我发觉他真的是真心诚意和我做朋友的
让我感觉虽然我身在异乡,
让我我知道我的傻婆,傻佬们都一直陪伴着我..

我喜欢...
谢谢!!James..

今晚, 我们十兄弟姐妹又会聚在一起..
每个人会煮one dishes and have our own reunion dinner.
今晚, 我们会好好地玩一玩.
庆祝一下!!
好期待..

除夕的我们... :O)

傻傻的我们..
我们十二兄弟姐妹们,
没有老人家的陪伴,
我们都傻傻地认为二月18th是除夕,19th是初一.
其实17th才是除夕,18th是初一.
嘻嘻!!我们都乱七八糟地庆祝..
我们美国式的新年庆祝,
我们十二兄弟姐妹去clubbing疯狂了一晚.
我们都很珍惜我们的异乡友情.
有时侯, 在特别的日子里,
我真的感觉有一点寂寞.
因为我都没有家人的陪伴.
我身在异乡,
没有妈妈煮的美食,
没有爸爸的严肃面孔,
没有朋友的祝福,
没有爱人的爱护.
家人和朋友是在远远的地方,
打电话回家给家人,朋友们,
常常都会感染到他们的欢乐气氛.
是有点寂寞,
但是可以和他们在不同的时间差距里,
一起感染朋友们的快乐.
Celine已经很满足了.
我期待我们再聚的一天.

I'm happy... :O)

What could be better than that?
Two of my classes have been cancelled today.haha

Hmm. 2007@ Valentine is very special to me.
It's because i had a wonderful celebration with my close friend - Hilda.
I know i will miss her after i graduate.
She's the sweetest girl in the world.
We might have different personality, age gap, but we have friendship.

This year, i received lots of wishes, some gifts, and unexpected phone calls.
I'm really happy and excited.As usual, they got me lots of stuff for this celebration.
No matter where i go, No matter where i am at,
and i know they are always around me all the time just like my sor po and sor lou.

Let's celebrate with our friendship love.
Let's celebrate with our true love.

I love you, Happy Valentine Day.

你想起了吗?

请你闭上眼睛,用一分钟的时间,
来形容我的模样.
一分钟里, 你想起多少我的特征.
有人对我说:: 如果, 是朋友的话,
不管你走到哪里,
你都会记住他/她的面额.

快乐的时光

这两天,我的时间都给搞乱了.
该睡觉的时候,我在忙.
该忙的时候, 我在睡觉.
还好, 有思念和thiam thiam的陪伴.

昨晚,老天爷下雨了.

请上天保佑噢!!!

不知道为何,
我感觉我身体
有点不对劲.
星期一,
该去检查一下了.
我有点害怕.

生日快乐.

happy birthday, ricky.

Hmm.. it's always good to have you all during birthday.

Another gathering.

Another memories.

我输了..

我们多少年来的姐妹情,
我们多少年来的家人情,

我竟然输给一个中国的笨小孩..

我以为我可以祝福妹妹的幸福..
但是, 我不能..

我就是讨厌他..
I HATE HIM
讨厌他的无能..
讨厌他的花心..
讨厌他的天真..
讨厌他的霸道..

他, 我妹的幸福...
i really hate him..

我无话可说,
只是无数的一行行的眼泪...

我们去吹吹风

我想看风车
一圈一圈地

很浪漫的感觉

眼睛闭上

身边有你的温度

那该有多好呢！！

亲爱的，

你会给我一个色彩的风车吗？

一点八分。。

我还是输给眼泪。。。

夜里，去洗个热水澡，
以为眼泪可以和水融为一体。。

原来， 我是骗自己。。

特别的VIP

每个人
心里都有一个
不能触摸的角落
我也不例外
因为我也是一位感性的女生

Hmm... 有机会的话，
我可以到你心房住一下吗？
我有福气吗？

遗忘的影子..

今天, 我总是提不起精神来
yoga的时候, 我也没什么力气
一天天地,过去了

突然间, 我很怀念有人叫我"可玮... or... 玮玮"
现在, 身边的人, 都叫我Celine... Celine Chang..
难道, "可玮... or... 玮玮"的我,
已经消失了吗?
没有人记得"可玮... or... 玮玮"了吗?

Cough Cough..

i am worried about my lung.
because these days i been attack by lots of virus..
....
sick sick virus..
please go away..
hmm.. everytime i fall sick during season changes
and i always have this nasty cough which really bother me.
because i am so noisy in class whenever someone is paying attention to the lecturer.

请救救我吧！！！

很笨的我

我又失败了。。

我还是不能控制我的冲动。。

我一直都做得好好的。。

我把那一道墙建得高高的。。

保护我的心灵。。

Why会掉下来的。

有谁来救我离开这陷阱呢！！

可玮，来抱抱。。。

婆婆，快好起来。。

婆婆，又进医院了。。

离开家，已经快四年了。。

陆陆续续，婆婆都和life奋斗了几次。。

每一次， 在远远的我，都是帮不了忙。。

有时候，没有人能了解我的无奈和不安。。

深夜里，很害怕收到国际电话。。

白天里，很害怕错过了国际电话。。

我很想念我的婆婆。。

婆婆进医院了。。

可能我讨厌那一种感觉。

那一种快要失去婆婆的预感。。

每一次，我都忍不住我的眼泪。。

一个人，远远地哭，好寂寞。。

我也知道我家人们，也都是很无奈。。

对不起，我知道我很懦弱。。

但是，我愿意。。

因为他是我的婆婆。。。

又熟悉又陌生的感觉。。

孤单是一种Virus..

今天，我傻傻地login那个account，

我熟悉地key in 我set的password.

还是一样的password。。

是没有改变的诅咒。。

看见我的名字。。

看见我的email。。

看见我的照片。。

看见我的sms。。

看见我的一却。。

心跳有点快了。。。

突然间，我呆了一下。。

Celine, 你是不是病坏了。。

我真的病疯了。。

我该去吃药噢！

今天，我好想念我的傻婆们，我的思念，我的thiam thiam..

含蓄的我们。。。。

I have a wish.. :O)
我只是希望你会小小声地说：
“ 我有一点喜欢你”。。。
or
让我知道你心里有我的存在。。。
就已经足够了。。。

我知道我不能要求太多。。。
因为我身在很遥远的地方。。。

We won... ISU v.s SAC

Today, i went to the basketball.

It's was a awesome game.

But, somehow, they could do a better job than that.

Well, we won.. 86 v.s 54..

It was my first game with this friend..

Well, i realized that he has been very quietly these days.

especially after my ojisan left the town.

Hmm.i think he miss ojisan as well.

Just like i do..

我的经验...:O)

::::亚洲人::::
总是比较含蓄一点...
大家都猜测,猜疑
喜欢你也不会说出口...
喜欢说:" 我们是比朋友更好的朋友 "

::::美国人::::
总是比较直接一点...
大家都温馨,激情
喜欢你天天都说出口.
喜欢说:" Baby, i love you "," Hon, i want you "

那么多年里,我身边都有亚洲人和美国人...
我和傻婆们的爱是美国式的....

Just a little..

今天, Celine很累..!!!!
因为昨晚, 我没有睡好.....
不知道为什么生病还是没有好起来...
这次, 我伤风的时候, 鼻子都出血了..
我是不是有病呀!!!!!
是不是有大病噢!!!!!

.....
生病... 真的很寂寞...
尤其是一个人在这儿...
尤其是没有人的关心...
我特别想和你撒娇....
但是, 你有时间给我吗?..

我只要一点点就够了....

你知道吗?加油, 加油!!!

思念说::

.............
今日辛苦 明日甜
明日幸福 靠今天
.............

我知道一定会的...

今天, 真的睡不着..
伤风依然还是没好起来...
月亮和云端, 和我家人一起吃碗餐..
早上,五点..
还是睡不着..
我想我家人....
很想...

像我对月亮和星星说的:"我真的是一个人的"...

怪怪的感觉...
习惯性地看我的思念和傻婆在网上吗?
看见我的思念了..
今天思念的颜色是蓝蓝,沉默的..
抱抱, 思念..
我好想大大声地说:"不怕..... 有我们"
但是, 我不知道为什么我没说..
只是, 静静的.....
...............
我现在才发现, 我没有和思念拍过照片..
下一次, 一定会...

Welcome to my world..

有时候, 我觉得好累...
我总是觉得我人生都是离离合合..
聚了又离......... 离了又聚
总是数不清的farewell.....gathering
我以为我真的可以像天空一样...
漂浮不定...
但是, 近来的我....
我的心, 好想停下来...
停在他的身边....
但是, 哪儿呢!!!!!!

Time Flies... :O)

时间总是过得特别快..
很快地我就快离开我美国的朋友..
是有点不舍得..
因为大家都是在异乡
一起渡过了许多的日子...
一起分担甜酸苦辣的朋友...
给美国人欺负的时候, 我们都为大家打气..
... Pocatello虽然不是天堂...
但是, 认识十兄弟们...
也是福气..

毕业了...
我的去向不明..
有点不安..有点焦虑...

一月二十二日..

2001年, 他送我一条可以把我紧紧地绑住的承诺...
这六年里, 断断续续我把它弄不见几次了..
但是, 每一次我又很幸运地把它找回..
今天, 一月二十二日..
它真的不见了...
它, 陪伴我数不清的365天, 数不清的24小时的手链不见了..
今天, 在课堂上, 我习惯成性地摸摸我的手链...
这一次, 真的不见了... 我有点慌张..
我想老天爷也说, 是时候了...
我也要习惯它的消失...

很渴望....

很期待看 "生日快乐"的那一天..
我天天都check...
但是,我还是等不到.....