Celine cried very loud and hard tonight = YOU
It's 9:45pm now.. I cried because finally after so many months YOU finally remember who I am . No email, no text, no call, nothing from you which YOU have deleted and removed me from your life. Just like everyday I am tired and laid on my bed to check my emails . These days, i dont even have time to check my personal emails during working hours.. I received an email from YOU was totally a big surprise and unexpected . I was deleting my incoming mails and saw a email from YOU .
I was asking myself am I dreaming or this is my unconscious illusion . Yesterday I was asking myself what will happene when I forget about YOU in my life . Will everything be better? Did YOU hear me?
After so many months , This is the first emails ever YOU have replied with "Hi Celine" ... Since the day YOU left, YOU have never call my name and behaved like a totally stranger at work with me .YOU behaved mean at work toward my application for not keeping me updated when you know I will be nervous . I was totally disappointed at YOU because you are the one I trusted and love .YOU broke our circle of trust with me even though YOU promised me in my heart . Everything was a lie .. A lie which broke my heart .
After reading your email , I hate myself for crying so hard and loud . I do .. I remembered the last time I cried that way when I was in your arm for my denial . My whole body shake because I couldn't control myself when I read this ~~~ """So many words left unspoken... So many thoughts left unsaid...""
Why ? Why ? CELINE...............Why am i still holding YOU back in my life? When YOU have deleted, removed, and forgot me and live happily ever after.
Why YOU are so cruel and heartless ? Why make me cried for YOU ?
I know few readers of my blog will be saying that i am stupid and dumb that i cried over YOU AGAIN. I know i am a loser in that way.. i do knoww...
If i ever have a chance to say this ~~ . .... ... .... ....
I was asking myself am I dreaming or this is my unconscious illusion . Yesterday I was asking myself what will happene when I forget about YOU in my life . Will everything be better? Did YOU hear me?
After so many months , This is the first emails ever YOU have replied with "Hi Celine" ... Since the day YOU left, YOU have never call my name and behaved like a totally stranger at work with me .YOU behaved mean at work toward my application for not keeping me updated when you know I will be nervous . I was totally disappointed at YOU because you are the one I trusted and love .YOU broke our circle of trust with me even though YOU promised me in my heart . Everything was a lie .. A lie which broke my heart .
After reading your email , I hate myself for crying so hard and loud . I do .. I remembered the last time I cried that way when I was in your arm for my denial . My whole body shake because I couldn't control myself when I read this ~~~ """So many words left unspoken... So many thoughts left unsaid...""
Why ? Why ? CELINE...............Why am i still holding YOU back in my life? When YOU have deleted, removed, and forgot me and live happily ever after.
Why YOU are so cruel and heartless ? Why make me cried for YOU ?
I know few readers of my blog will be saying that i am stupid and dumb that i cried over YOU AGAIN. I know i am a loser in that way.. i do knoww...
If i ever have a chance to say this ~~ . .... ... .... ....
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