HELP SSCC

Please don't attack me with emails , calls , and texts . I saw the incoming calls with YOU and I am asking myself over and over again should I pick it up . No , I didn't .. I don't know how can I talk to YOU anymore... 
YOU request me to call , text, and meet you ... Deep in my heart , I really want to because I do need a friend now . :( 

But I didn't ...  I couldn't accept YOU are being so cruel , heartless and all the lies .