Tonight, i am not trying to pretend i am ok.
I'm not ok.
I'm somehow panic and nervous.
I felt why i have to work so hard for that.. i could have different ways.
I also manja manja.. i dont want to explain why.
just be with me..
i just need a shoulder to cry on.
But, you're so far away.
But, you all are so far away.
Well, it's time for bed.
Tomorrow, i will be celine chang.
Smile smile.
Another wonderful moments.
Hmm.. finally i left pocatello, idaho.
I am in Virginia right now.
The feeling being away from my second home is kind of weird.
But, i know it's another destiny for me.
May 28th, 2007, is a day to be rememebered.
May every living being,
Our minds as one and radiant with light,
Share the fruits o peace,
With hearts of goodness, luminous and bright.
If people hear and see,
How hands and hearts can find in giving, unity,
May their minds awake,
To Great Compassion, wisdom and to joy.
May kindness find reward,
May all who sorrow leave thier grief and pain;
May this boundless light.
Break the darkness of their endless night.
Because our hearts are one.
This world of pain turns into Paradise.
May all become compassionate and wise,
May all become compassionate and wise.
Hmm...
Finally, i graduated from Idaho State University.
2003 , i gave up everything just to come to USA for a new start.
I gave up opportunity to be around with my families, my friends, my love, and my career.
finally, i am done.
i fullfilled my dream and graduated from a university from usa.
That's one of my dream.
i had a wonderful simple celebration.
Lots of friends came back to town for graduation and the simple gathering.
we had lots of catch up. lots of stories to tell each other.
Yes, in two weeks, i am going to leave this place.
leave pocatello where i had been staying for 3 years.
i am going to virginia, herndon.
It's a big cities, fast-paced, sunny state. it is totally different from pocatello.
i have to challenge myself for a new envinronment, new life, new friends, new career.
sor po.. i will bring you gals around with me
and fight the wars with you all.
these days, mummy is around. she cooked bf, lunch, and dinner.
first, it's kind of uncomfortable because it has been long time nobody around to control and nag at me.
but, i know mummy love me so much.
she is so happy with my new job.
somehow, i felt i am kind of lucky.. because for international students it is hard to get a job over here.
pls pray for me..
miss you gals.
hai...
原来,坦白从宽是错误的开始..
外面的世界,
我选择了, 保护自我的形式.
原来,我的内心世界也应该是一样的.
我猜错了呀!!.. 笨celine.. 嘻嘻!!
我也会踏踏实实地保护我自己.
hmm...
I watched an excellent movie today
it's so real and it's really describe my real feeling.
Will i be the same?
haha...
:O)
Man, i cant wait for the best moments in my life..
Hoorayyyyyyyyy...
这次我真的有点气
虽然你是我的朋友
但是，我真的有点失望
认识那么多年了
我也知道这是你的性格和作风
可能是我小气了
还是我厌倦了那种方式
我还是不明白
为何你总是那么的虚假，
爱showing off
说反话
有时候，我在想
你是不是想要证明些什么东西
如果是那样的话，我认为你赢了全世界
我还以为我们是朋友，我们之间是坦诚相对的
没有竞争，没有谎言
只有真心话。。
我看我错了。。。
我觉得我可能误会了，但是那确是我的第一个想法。。
我会好好的调整我的态度。。
失礼了。。
Hmm.. today i was wondering.
How much does honesty cost?
If i have $20 right now, how much honesty can i get?
haha...
i think i am going insane..
Let me earn my 1st million first...
hahahahahahaha......
silly me..
Why.........
Why.........
人就是那么虚假..
永远不会说真话..
Everybody is...
Seeking for someone who is not like that..
:O)
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