Celine.Chang

Hmm.. these days, i don't feel like talking to anyone.
Just myself..
I didn't go online as usual.
I didn't send sms as usual.
I didn't report anything as usual.

Surprisingly, many people come and asked me " am i ok?"
i was thinking..
"Is Celine too attached to everyone?"
"Is it the time, Celine step back go with her own life?"

Anyway, i am done with moody periods,
i think i will be fine today.
I figured out something and found out a ways to settle it.
And, i have my peanuts tang yuan for dessert today.

Somehow, i want to watch a movie which can make me gan dong.
I felt like the heart is closing up.
hehe.
Help me.

Wonderful Wonderful

I slept well these days.
Just liked to roll myself with my thick comforter and lay on my bed. And, just listening to music and do nothing.
hmm..
It's so comfortable.
It's friday.I am so excited.
I fixed myself up today. Hehe.. Celine looked girly today.. hehe..
Everyone is planning the plans for July 4th.
I am kind of disappointed because i cant meet up with ojisan and koji for the celebration.
No worries, definitely i am going to indianapolis one day.
I always liked july 4th because it's the best time to see firework.
I think this year i will be in Washington DC, right in front of the White House.
Counting down for my July 4th.
I can't wait. What can be better than that?

I miss my firework.. hehe..

"汤圆"美梦..

这个月里,
是第三次, 你在我梦中出现.
这次的故事很真.
在我梦境里,
"我们认识了十多年了,
这一次, 是重逢的时刻,
我们的样子都成熟了.
都有了默契, 也知道我们需要的是什么."
在我梦境里,
你坚持带我去吃"汤圆"
还是我喜欢的花生"汤圆"
我们来到了一家很古老的店子里,
你向老板聊了一会,
点了我的"汤圆".. 真的很喜欢"汤圆"
然后, ..................
都是很窝心的梦..

谢谢你!! 谢谢周公公!!
虽然, 在现实里, 这是不可能发生的事.
但是,在我梦境里,你让我感觉很幸福.

我真的很满足了..
可以说, 解脱了..

Suds Fight

Yesterday, it was a fun experience.
We have a 泡泡厨房..
满地上都是泡沫..
很壮观的场面..

两位傻傻的roomate decide to wash the dishwasher for the first time.
They ended up putting too much dish soap in the dishwasher.
Haha...

So, 30 minutes later, i heard someone screaming at the kitchen.
"LOOK......... LOOK AT THOSE SUDS"

So, we spend almost an hour to clean up the mess and turned on and off for the dishwasher.
It was fun because there are something that we could laugh at it when we recall our time in
apt 101.

晚安宝贝

歌手：张栋梁 专辑：王子

闭上你的眼我在你身边

晚安我的宝贝

微微的呼吸轻抚你的脸

此刻幸福洋溢我们的世界

在这现实的生活有太多的丑陋

感谢你让我遇见漂亮的你

我爱你小宝贝你是我的天使

看你的眼看到了我们所有回忆

没有疑问就是你让我实现梦想

只因为你让我明白快乐的定义

希望我们一直就这样在一起

什么也不能将我们俩再分开

直到永远

每天早上一醒来就看到你的脸

让我们一辈子来庆祝

我们拥有彼此

Hmm.. I realy like this song because that will be all my feeling to you

I wonder will you able to hear this song?

hehe.. 晚安宝贝 :*

Ironicly..

我想,

距离那么近的你们

都不能, 坦诚相待和很多的猜疑.

那么, 距离那么悠远的我,

又怎么能打胜战呢!

哎呀!!!!!

没信心了..

真的有点气..

Because I am so incredibly lucky :O)

The same question has been asked by my three sor po in 3 different days.
"Celine, How are you these days"
"I really want to know about you"
The first day was Phoebe Ng.. " She said, how is my ker wei"
The second day was Jeannie Lim.. " Jie, how are you"
The third day was Melanie Tan "R u ok?"

HMm.. 3 different days.. 3 differents ways.. 3 different sor po..

I just felt like i am so lucky because of faith.
i have 3 most important friends in my life.

As i told mel mel, the last few days i have been cleaning up my gmail.
I read about all those mail send from 3 sor po..
Those lovely picture send from 3 sor po.
Man... what can i say? i am the most lucky person in the whole.
i felt like no matter where we go.
our heart is always around..
we are always around for each other eventhough we are not physical there.
Dont you think that's the best? That's what i have been seeking for.
The true friendship.

We laughed together for every things.
We smile because we have each others
We Cried because we have each other shoulders to lean on.
We shared because we want each other to be there no matter what, when or what.
We learned from each other.
We scolded each other for certain things ( Celine always do that.. sorry.)
We supported each other because we know we are someone who can shared our friendship with.

What else can i complain?
Seriously, nothing i can complain.
Especially when i am so far away, i cant be there for yum cha, travel, birthday, hang out, movie.. and all those things.
But, you all never make me felt left out.
Never.. Not even onces

Most of my friends from USA know about my 3 sor po..
sorry, i showed everyone the picture of you all because it's in my purse.
Everyone asked me " How did you do that? "

Lots of people are proud of our friendship and our faith.
I know i have been saying that lots of time.
But, i am not shy, shame, bored to say that over and over again.

I just have to said

I LOVE YOU ALL FOREVER AND EVER.

"我猜我猜我猜猜猜"上映了

今天, 很意外地,发现了很多东西.
有好的,
有坏的,
有窝心的,
有担心的.

今晚, 有点乱.
为什么人总是那么神秘?
为什么不可以坦白, 率直呢!

有点,不知道该如何面对..

@曖昧@

曖昧是，比好朋友再親一點，但比情人遠一點。
曖昧是彼此有感覺，然而，這種感覺不足以叫你們切切實實的發展一段正式的關係。
曖昧是明白人生有太多的無奈，現實有太多的限制。你知道沒有可能，但又捨不得放手。
曖昧是有進一步的衝動，卻沒有進一步的勇氣。
曖昧是一方永遠不說，另一方就永遠裝作不懂。於是一方永遠沈默，一方永遠裝傻。
曖昧是，你會常常在MSN等他/她上線，每當他/她幾天沒上線，你會開始擔心。
曖昧是，他不是你的情人，但他似乎比你的情人更關心你和了解你。
曖昧是，天冷時，感冒時有一個會在晚上傳訊息特意提你服藥，叫你多穿點、蓋好被早點睡的普通朋友。
曖昧是，半夜你睡不著，卻可以放心打電話給他聊天的普通朋友。
曖昧是，當你遇到問題解決不了的時候，你找不到你的男朋友，或者不能問男朋友的，你第一個便會想起他。
曖昧是，每當她提及他的另一半時，你會萬箭穿心，但你也希望他幸福。
曖昧是，你明明知道問他你的愛情的問題會令他擔心、甚至會令他難過，但你除了他卻不大知道要問誰。
曖昧是甜津津又同時酸溜溜的。叫人不安，患得患失。
曖昧是，常常掙扎彼此關係。你怕透明化之後，你既得不到一個情人，卻又失去了一個知心好友。
曖昧是，見不到他時，你會掛念他。見到的時候，又會覺得還好。
曖昧是，兩個人都會互相猜度。他是不是已經暗示了甚麼？我是不是自作多情?
曖昧是，雖然他不是你的情人，但他卻會對你說：「你對我是十分重要的。」
曖昧 ~這種關係存在友情之間 , 是一種很特別的朋友 是一種默契的朋友...
不近也不遠，不多情也不無情...
暧昧是，两个人没有承诺过什么，虽然如此，你愿意付出的，比有承诺的情侣更多。没有责任，却很渴望去承担，不问回报.

沒有對與錯﹐ 只有無奈~

對他/她的無奈

對自己的無奈

對那時候身邊的男/女朋友的無奈

That's very interesting.

Never thought about that way.

S.I.N.I.A.N

很多人都问:
"Celine, what's sinian?"
"Celine, is sinian english or chinese or cantonese?"

我都会回答:
"sinian是思念"

"hmmmmmm.... ""嘻嘻!!!"

思念&sinian是"思念"给我的
今天, "思念"发明了 ========
S = Simple
I = In Love
N = N
I = I
A = Am
N = Nature

Anyway, it's all about.
Simple in Love N i am Nature (简单和自然是我的天性)
(Hmm.. the translation sound funny.. dont really like it but i dont have a better way to translate the message.. anyway, please bear with me.. )

Yeah, i want to be sinian forever.

"我很好"

Hmm..
我想对你说:
别担心我,
虽然我总是一个人
远远地生活着,
无可争辩,
我有很多朋友在美国的天空里,
认识了很多东西, 伤痕累累,
但是我认为那是我所希望的一切.


我真的很好. 真的....
你的离开, 我有点不习惯,
但是我会好好的.
所以, 你可以放心去闯你的天空.
你可以把我这包袱放下.

只期望,
以后的你会和我分享你那没有我的天空.
虽然我很想把你永远留在我身边.
但是, 我做不到... 因为...
别担心我, 记得我是Celine噢!


有人问我:
是习惯吗?
还是我真的想念他.


我想我什么都是...

200 pounds Beauty

I love this movie because it's so real.

I cried.

I laughed.

I hope.

I think.

And, you should watch this movie too?

去找吧...

找一個能令妳(你)微笑的人 ...
因為一個微笑就可以令妳(你)心情變好 ...
因為一個微笑就可以令妳(你)心境變寬 ...
因為一個微笑就可以令妳(你)心裡變暖 ...
即使再寒冷, 心都是暖暖的 !
即使再無助, 心都是甜甜的 !

你找到了吗?

端午节快乐

很熟悉的节日
很怀念的味道
很传统的美食


每一年, 这个时候,
我都会很忙, 因为我喜欢自己弄粽子,
喜欢一团团的粽子..
喜欢和婆婆和阿姨们一起包粽子
喜欢弄给傻婆和傻佬们吃..
喜欢吃自己弄的粽子
喜欢和你到处去品尝不同的粽子
喜欢和朋友们分享一粒大粽子


粽子永远是我的最爱.
每一次回家的时候,
我都会买粽子
一个人,独自享受
我喜欢吃粽子的那个感觉,
粘粘的..
香香的..
感觉很满足..
感觉我好像拥有了全世界..


我已经好久没吃粽子了..
好像有点不习惯

June 17 - Washington DC Visit

It's was a sunny day Few of us, went to Washington DC.
I saw the White House, US Capitol, Lincon Memorial and others.
The most exciting was having lunch at Malaysian Restaurant - Kopitiam.
The food was delicious especially after so many months away from home.
It was a fun and exciting sight seeing day.
As usual, because of walking under the sun for at least 4 hours.
I had my headache during night time.
My head was hurting me badly until i couldnt fall asleep.
At that moment, it reminds me of mummy and daddy.

A.G.R.E.E.

You said:
"We cannot force something
to happen or expect someone
to do something
when conditions have not yet matured. "

I said:" AGREED"

Reality

hehe..
Saturday.. June 16, 2007. 晴天

It's a simple day, i went to Fair Oaks Mall and get myself something.
The mall is humungous.
One day, i wish i could just live like others.
I know i can do it.

=========================
快乐的时光永远是很短暂的..
为什么我那么在意呢!
可能, 真的没有什么是永远的.
=========================

模糊的感觉

今晚,
和月亮聊天的时候,
我才发现原来
已经快四年多,
我没有和任何人argue in cantonese.
美国的天空,
让我忘记了
和人面对面吵架,撒娇的那个我..
那个对家人, 朋友, 宝贝,男友都有我的style
FACE TO FACE 的感觉

快四年了,
我快忘记了..
now, everything is in english..

我突然间, 我有点怀念.
speaking and arguing in cantonese used to be very 亲切

i want it back...

Moments of pleasure

11.50 pm.
10 minutes more..it's going to be 12pm.
haha.
today, it's a wonderful friday night.
It has been a while since the last time i enjoyed my friday night just like today.
i didnt do anything special.
Just went to get some vegetables from shoppers.
cooked myself a bowl of korean noodles.
Make myself a cup of ice tea with lemon juice.
Everything was simple.
But, i am satisfied.

I am happy because i meet some nice people around who is willing to give me any helps i wanted.
Just like mom said,it's all blessing.

The friends from work, i think i could considered them as my friends.
Eventhough, we dont shared the same culture,
But, we have trust in each others.
That's all matter.

Celine, please go to bed early today.
No more sleepless night for u ya..
... hehe.. at least i try to..

星期五.

今天,早上,
发了一个梦,
很无聊的梦.

嘻嘻!!!
还是喜欢刚睡醒的那一刻..

母爱.

肚子好疼..
每一次, 我都幻想我有病..
因为从小, 我的大肚肚都很敏感.

疼的时候,
我想起了.
妈妈的温暖的手,
按摸我的肚子.

真心话

我很喜欢的一句
"我不舍得你流眼泪"..
傻傻的快乐.

可以吗?

昨晚,下雨了..
喜欢听到滴滴"答答"的雨声.
哼着我的歌..
让我感觉很幸福..

希望,这种感觉是一辈子的.
我可以吗?

Reality

Hmm.. i am suprised how could my co-workers became so selfish.
Well, i didnt get angry.
I just think that's very childish.
Very funny..

Well, i just wont do the same thing because i treat them as my teacher.
Never do that to someone else.

天空..

肚子很疼..
傻婆和傻佬们去了langkawi,
妈妈,爸爸,妹妹都很忙.
思念也一样...
宝贝也是.

很简单的一个晚上.
天空依然是蓝色的.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

Today, i went to Wal Mart to get some stuff for myself.
i was walking alone in Wal Mart.
There are lots of stranger faces around me.
After finished picking up my stuff,
i was standing in front of the register,and my phone just rang.
It's dad. Dad called. dad called me i felt so warm.
We chat for a while.
It's like 5 minutes.
And, as usual, just like when i am a little girl.
i cried when daddy pampered me and i wish i can give him everything of mine.
sometime,i believed that a suprise call or
just a few minutes call from home gave me lots of support and energy.
I am seeking my internally with real soul.
Somehow, i am still waiting the call i am expected.
I know it's impossible ....
But, i am still hoping it's not a wish..

Quote of the day ~~

There is a big difference between love and compassion.

Love comes from feelings; compassion comes from wisdom.

Love is unstable and unreliable.

We may love someone today but not tomorrow.

When someone tells us that he or she loves or hates us, we would do well not to take it too seriously.

However, compassion is for forever because it is based on the wisdom that is part of the true mind, our original self.

Promise Bill

<一张签单>
就是甲方永远不会忘记乙方,
就算任何一方死亡, 依然继续生效.

It's so true

9月10日
白色翠菊(ChinaAster)花語:誠信
花占卜:您平時不苟言笑，熟絡之後才會發覺您其實是個活潑好動的人，外表的樸實，只是一個表面的您。您對人很忠心，期望純潔的愛情，日後多點培養自己的內涵，必會遇到理想的情人。
花箴言:不要掩飾了，將自己的真性情流露出來吧。

The invisible power.

hmm.. i'm feeling better
i think i can do it.
i just need to concentrate on my mind and soul.
Somehow, thanks for my jeannie,my remus, and my ojisan to be with me all the time.
Thanks for staying there with me.
because of you all, it make me Celine Chang

GANBATEHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I just think that i am stupid
I am mad at myself.
I know i can do it.

你我他

歌曲：你我他
歌手：康康 专辑：灰色调

半夜醒来的时候
你离他远走
四方屋里只剩孤寂
电话声响起

你在那里诉说委曲
关于他和你
我在这里一如往昔
说什么都没意义

我和你和他之间的故事
该怎么解释
我爱你你却爱他
他又爱着谁

我和你和他之间的故事
该怎么结束
我痛苦你清楚
他比我幸福比我幸福

你爱上一个不爱你的他
该不该等待

我爱上一个不爱我的你
算不算悲哀

p/s: Just found this song accidentally, and this song remind me of my sinian.
I guess at this moment he is sleeping or having sweet dream.
I know he will understands this song completely.
Hugs hugs. smile smile.
Take care.
Dont's know why Miss you at this moment.
USA TIME 4.33PM.
June 2nd, 2007