I was wrong ~~

Stupid Celine for being Silly :)  I found the package as my neighbor kept it for me . I thought I moved to a bad neighborhood . hehehehehe 

So sorry for calling someone stupid .. Silly Celine 

Stupid Fedex from San Jose

Why would someone dumb left a package at the door ? 

I always have YOU as a ship to address as I know is safe . Now , I have to depend on my own . And I lost my package and $$ . :( 

Celine , wake up !!! 

The day which I have been avoiding ..

I never want to see YOU again even though I still cried when I think about YOU .. But, I might have to meet YOU around because of some reason . I am thinking how can behave normally when I see YOU again . 

How can I treat you as a normal person when I hate and love YOU so much ? What should I do ? HELP me .. I am lost ~~  

Volunteered at Second Harvest Food Bank , San Jose.

We packed oranges today ... Yippee :) 

RIP,Japan.. This is a song dedicated to Mari

I love my spicy tofu noodle ..

Today is definitely a spicy tofu noodle soup day ... 
I am sure you will like it.. 

Emergency Contact person

Who would you put as an emergency contact for yourself ? 

By heart, it was still the same number which I wrote down in the past 2 years ..  404-271-7345 . 

;( 

Volunteered at Food Packers for Sunnyvale Community Center . :)

Another 800 bags with a group of awesome good hearted people . 
I love it . 

The bottle for Six Flag , Discovery Kingdom .

It doesn't belong to me . But I still have it because of SS. 

Volunteered at Sacred Heart , San Jose

Within 3 hours ,all the volunteers packed 925 bags of food for homeless people . 

Good Teamwork .. :) 

Bingo night with all wonderful ladies :)

I had a good time with Bingo tonight !! 

TGIF ..*\(^o^)/*

:) 

Horoscope for the day

My horoscope said :" Virgo, Mar 23:
Today you're going to have to forgive and forget (at least temporarily)." 

. .... ... .... ....

A dream with Wall-E (YOU)

I had a dream that I am going to watch the movie WALL - E . 

It was so real in my dream . So real. ~~~~ 

My desktop picture .. :)

I am a deep thinker :) hehehehehe 

Celine created few cards for troops

Happy 3rd Birthday , Princess . :)

I went to my friend's daughter birthday party . It ate lots of good food and had a good time . They remind me of my family . The good time from Home . 

Good to have family around . :) 

Volunteered at RAFT , San Jose

It was a fun day sorting things at RAFT. 

I found these cute little cupcakes things today . I will want to learn how to make cupcake one day . :) 

Volunteered at Food Basket for HIV/Aids families

it was a surprise to meet a friend in the volunteer event today . 

It was a fun day with pho and movie ~~ love the rain .... :) 

RIP, my friends from Japan

You all will be remembered .. :( 

I am TIRED

Finally , I am leaving office now . And it is 11:21pm .. 

So , I am super duper TIRED . :) 

The email i sent to YOU on April 25, 2009

This is the email i sent to YOU when YOU got my trust.




"""So many words left unspoken…
So many thoughts left unsaid…

Life’s fragile.
If there are people that you wanted to keep in your life, treat them well, and constantly tell them how much you love them.

No matter what happen, never let go….
Cause who knows, all of a sudden, you might loose the ability or chances to tell them, how much you love them… """


These are the words i sent out to YOU in 2009. It was my words from heart once.
Should i reply to the email YOU sent on March 15, 2011?

My lovely friend - Mari from Japan

I am glad one of my friends from Japan - Mari. She is safe.Thanks god for protecting her and her families.

I can't wait for us to meet each other one day. :)

I miss you, Mari.

I am still waiting for the good new about others. God, please protect them...

Celine cried very loud and hard tonight = YOU

It's 9:45pm now.. I cried because finally after so many months YOU finally remember who I am .  No email, no text, no call, nothing from you which YOU have deleted and removed me from your life. Just like everyday I am tired and laid on my bed to check my emails . These days, i dont even have time to check my personal emails during working hours.. I received an email from YOU was totally a big surprise and unexpected .  I was deleting my incoming mails and saw a email from YOU .

I was asking myself am I dreaming or this is my unconscious illusion . Yesterday I was asking myself what will happene when I forget about YOU in my life . Will everything be better? Did YOU hear me?

After so many months , This is the first emails ever YOU have replied with "Hi Celine" ... Since the day YOU left, YOU have never call my name and behaved like a totally stranger at work with me .YOU behaved mean at work toward my application for not keeping me updated when you know I will be nervous . I was totally disappointed at YOU because you are the one I trusted and love .YOU broke our circle of trust with me even though YOU promised me in my heart .  Everything was a lie .. A lie which broke my heart . 

After reading your email , I hate myself for crying so hard and loud  . I do .. I remembered the last time I cried that way when I was in your arm for my denial .  My whole body shake because I couldn't control myself when I read this ~~~ """So many words left unspoken... So many thoughts left unsaid...""

Why ? Why ?  CELINE...............Why am i still holding YOU back in my life? When YOU have deleted, removed, and forgot me and live happily ever after.

Why YOU are so cruel and heartless ?  Why make me cried for YOU ? 

I know few readers of my blog will be saying that i am stupid and dumb that i cried over YOU AGAIN. I know i am a loser in that way.. i do knoww...

If i ever have a chance to say this ~~ . .... ... .... ....

I am tired

I am really exhausted today.. March 15,2011 

Forget ...

One day , when I lost the memory of YOU ... will everything be better .. ?? HELP !!  What is that I am still holding YOU back in my life ? A sincere apology ? A text ? A call ? A hug ?  A conversation ? A friend ? Trust ? 

The rose ring I love

hmm this is the rose ring I got from Indianapolis ..  :)    I like it .. 

Celine's transformation ....

Do you like it?

Personally, i love it .. :)

Volunteered at 2011 Denim & Diamonds - A Venetian Masquerade Ball

This is one of the best events i had in my life. I went to a Venetian Masquerade Ball with many fun activities.

This is best party in Silicon Valley,” this premier event features live and silent auctions, fine dining and casino-style entertainment for 550 of the Bay Area’s leading business and community members.

The Venetian Masquerade Ball gala benefits Ronald McDonald House at Stanford, a home-away-from-home and supportive community for families of children with life-threatening illnesses receiving specialized treatment at local hospitals.

I am glad that i am able to make differences. :)

And, i had lots of fun last night. I want a mask.. the black mask.. :)

I am ready for the event.. hehe.. :)

I love this.. This is MY Mask for tonight..I am so cool.

This is the station i have been assigned. The wheels of fortune for either Denim or Diamonds Prize.

They are the best. They remined me of my sister. I know my sister will like them a lot too.

The casino style..  Yippeeee.. Free flow of acholol.. :)

Love it.. :)

Goodnight !! Celine.. :)

Love you.. 14344.

Volunteered at Chopping veggies at Menlo Park :)

 

 

I am the one who hardly cook for myself but every month I will come here to help in preparing food ,  chopping food , and cleaning for homeless people . 

These 4 hours are always awesome . I enjoyed a lot and always had fun doing that . People is very nice and good hearted . Today, we served aorund 350 homeless people for hot plate of food. People asked me what did i learn about volunteering ... I think i learn how to appreciate my family and friends aorund me. I also learn how to treat someone with passion and love. 

I also learned that whatever YOU have done to me in 2010 was the most cruelest in my life. I am not able to forgive the disappointment and hurt YOU have gave me in 2010.

 I love to be around them rather than be with YOU in memories . 

RIP M & Y

I can't believed this ever .  Celine . Stop crying ..  14344 

Got a birthday cake today ..

We went to celebrate Remi's birthday . The pasta is so so so delicious .  You should share this with me next time .