Celine at Indianapolis Zoo :)

I had fun today at the Zoo. I always like to go to aquarium because of the animal. Somehow, i miss going to Six Flag to see Shouka and Dophin. And the holiday in the park as well. I really wanted to see it.

Will YOU go to Six Flag at Vallejo in 2010? It was a good memories we had in September 2010. The first time ever YOU went for a ride with me. 

Homemade Gyoza Day

I had fun today by making Gyoza.  Lovely day :)

Celine loves the snow :)

I have allergy attack today :(

I think is the snow.. lol :)

Celine left

I left San Jose.

It has been more than a month that i refused to drive on the "Hostetter Road" because of YOU.

This morning, for some reason, the Taxi Driver has to drive through the same street. 

But, i dare not look up and check whether you're still around. 

Celine, you're such a chicken.

Celine's 2010 Christmas Day

2011 Christmas Day is the most meaningful day in my life.

I spend my day at VA Hospital and sang Christmas Carol to our vetarans. It's heart touching to see them being alone in this holiday seasons. That's they main reason why we were there for them to be with them. We are not alone as we have faith in each others.  

Later in the day, i am glad i met Mei Ling who can open my heart and talked about the YOU who make me cried from inside my heart.  She guided me through the gate and i open up the door.

I am glad and i felt free.

Celine Chang.. 2011 is waiting for you. Please let the COWARD go.

1 Promise for Celine Chang

I have promised myself i will not cry inside my car for YOU anymore. I was pouring i think i have been holding it up for so long. Finally, i just let it go and cry as loud as i could.
I thought i was fine but i just burst out my tears last night in my car. My car is always the safest place for me to be myself.

YOU are the most selfish person in the world who doesn't understand the true meaning of love. YOU believed that love can be started with lies and guilt. I was so disappointed that i trusted YOU that you are somehow different from others. I guess you're the same.
The COWARD & LIAR. Afterall, you only think about the commitment you need to do. Just put yourself in my shoes, i am doing the same. But, i am willing to do it.

Well... I cant stop YOU being a COWARD and JERK in 2010.

1 Wise VS Idiot Man = Savinder Juneja

"A wise man makes his own decisions; An ignorant man follows public opinion"
- Chinese Proverb

I Dream : YOU & ME

YOU , ME , Together, Forever..
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1 Messed up Day - December 22, 2010

I cancelled my flight to Indianapolis which I supposed to leave tonight at 7pm. This is the first flight ever in my life which I have not even brought out my luggage for a trip. I am not ready for a trip. And, the 2010 year has been very harsh on me. Please give me some good time. God.. if you listen to me.. Please dont be too harsh on me.

And, I also gave a hard time to this gentleman who is trying his best to be around me. Sorry.. I am not ready.

I felt kind of weird and sad yesterday. I think I have lost my mind because I know that he is coming back today. Yes.. YOU are back... YOU are back with shame and disrespect from me.

I thought I could handle YOU better than I thought. I guess I was wrong.

I am wondering, how did you handle ME in your world? I guess you're perfectly fine because you are so heartless and selfish.

1 Please for YOU.. I can't handle it anymore..

Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...
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Please go away !!! YOU...
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Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...
Please go away !!! YOU...

Please let me be free ..

1 Thought - December 21, 2010

LOVE must be sincere.

HATE what is evil.

Cling to what is good.

Come..... Celine needs a hug.

1 Wish :)

One day, i want to decorate my house with Christmas light.

And with a handsome snowman.. :)

1 Visit to Office today

I thought i will be perfectly fine and i can handle it when i go to office.

When i am driving i almost hit a car. When i am driving, my mind was blank.

When i reached the office, i was sitting in the car. My mind was blank.

I waited for few minutes and took out the two gifts which i have prepared.

I walked up the stairs... 1,2,3,4,5,6..... steps..

My heart is beating very fast and it hurt very deeply.

I can't hold my tears... I cant..

Why do i need to face this again? Can i just forget about everything and leave everything behind like i have planned? I want to run away like YOU. Run Celine Run...

But, i quickly pull myself together, i stepped into the office and saw that there are many packages which you have ordered in the office especially when you are abroad.

You're still the same. It seemed like nothing has changed in your life.

You just run away and erased everything .

It is just like nothing happened and forgot about it completely.
How can someone be so heartless?

Why me?

1 Volunteer Christmas - December 19-20

I went to Christmas Volunteer today at Sacred Heart this weekend.

It has been very busy since Friday.. We collected toys from public and getting ready to distribute to the 5000 households before Christmas. Thousands of toys and 800 bikes were donated from the public. Yeahh.. i know that's a lot.

I felt great because i can see the few hours of all the volunteers can turn into another happiness for others. We learned how to create impact into others life. Either bad or good..

I wish that i always have good impact into others life. I do not wish be like YOU who create bad impact into others life.

In 2011, my goal is to create more good impacts into others life.

Here i come.. Celine Chang is here to be real.

1 Visit to Christmas in the Park

Finally, After 2 years of delayed of promised visit to "Christmas in the Park".

I finally visited it myself.

It was so pretty and lovely.

Note: Shame on YOU!!!! YOU're such a loser..

1 Stranger

I really appreciate that you're enjoying and listening to my heart. :)

I am not sure who are you as you are listed as "Anonymous"

But, i would like to say Thanks..

Take care, my Stranger :)

1 - FYI

It's my last working day in 2010.
It has been very interesting..
:)

1 Lie

You said you will never stop talking to me.
You said you will be there for me no matter what.
You said you will be the same in another 10 years.
You said you will care about me.
You said you will be my friend.
................................

Why did you stop now?
Why am i feeling the deepest and the most unbearable pain in my heart?

Celine tied it with wishes

I was walking along Santana Row tonight.

Christmas tree and christmas lights are up. Everywhere is ready for the holiday season. Everyone is getting ready for 2011. They are smilling

...

I walked and shopped .

I got home and tied all the gifts i prepared with gold ribbons.

We pray :)

We pray when we were young...
We are still praying..

And, now, i prayed all the best wishes for my family and friends.. or strangers with a good heart.. :)

All the best wishes from Celine..

Holiday wishes and love

I am done wrapping each of the gifts.. :)
I really like the wrapping paper i got this year..

Smile... Celine